Passing By. The Magician

    Unable to explain the phenomena you're experiencing, you wade in place, being mindful when you feel your thoughts wandering to your existence above the surface. Each time you catch your mind moving towards what exists beyond the ocean, you gently guide your thoughts back to the inhale and exhale of the ocean's movements. What began as an impulse decision to dive into the ocean is slowly becoming a journey that holds more meaning than you believe you're ready to embrace. You have no idea where it will lead you and you're aware that continuing may change you as a person for good. Looking up, you notice how the sun refracts on the surface of the water, making otherworldly patterns that are mirrored on your skin. Looking down at the patterns created, you watch as the light dances across your arms and legs, and shades of blue slowly make their way across and around your body. It would probably only take you a few moments before you would breach the ocean, being in your world once again, but you find yourself unable to move. Whether it's because you don't want to take advantage of the gift of breathing underwater, as you're not sure how much longer it will last, or because you genuinely want to continue your journey, you're not sure.

    If you were to confront the real reason why you're unable to move, you would have to come face to face with your self-doubt. You're not hesitating to go deeper on this journey because you have any doubt that what you are going to see is going to change you, because you're positive it will, you hesitate because you don't think you should be the one who goes on this journey. There must be someone more qualified, someone more important, someone more intelligent who should be going on this adventure into the ocean. As you meditate on these feelings, you recognize that they aren't rational at all. You have been given this gift by the abyss because you are the one meant for this journey and to attempt to pass it off is more insulting to the ocean. Facing these feelings that you have towards yourself, you understand that they are a part of you. When you doubt yourself, that isn't someone else, that's you. You must intentionally feel love for yourself and release the doubt you allow to suffocate your mind. You can't seem to want to move though, towards above the ocean or towards the ocean floor. Instead, you remain in position, allow your mind to wander, and stay mindful of where it tries to escape to. Whenever you need to, you return your thoughts to the present moment and connect with yourself as the ocean gently moves you.